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its been too long. im laughing at myself for some of the things i wrote. they are being deleted.
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[12 May 2005|09:41pm] |
Crash. you sit in the theater taking in every part of the movie. in horrow, shock, disbelief, morning, sympathy. Hotel Rowanda. Wishing you were there to say stop this madness. to say how does someone have it in their heart to commit genecide. how can someone truely believe that they are doing good by slashing necks with a machette for no other reason than the fact that these people weren't born as they were. and how can people stand idle as something like this occurs, especially so recent in history. It's as if your life changes the moment you walk out of these movies- your a different person. this time you are really going to do something to help other people that are being insulted and mistreated for their race, religion, ethnic background.You feel so bad. Most of all, you feel a sense of power, wanting people to take you seriously in your conviction that you are nothing like these hateful people, and that you truely care to change things. In this determination you preach to everyone that they must see Hotel Rowanda, research online to see what kind of aid you can give to the Sudan, and vouch to raise awareness on different types of racism. Though, the best thing you end up doing is joining amnesty international and becoming an insignificant ant to a towering white house and other large organizations who could give a flying fuck about what your saying and have no intention or desire to take the time and consider your case. In the end, the naivety and ignorance of society to race, religion, ethinic background and culture, and news turn your power into hopelessness and discouragement. And thats when people stop and realize that rarely can one person make a difference.
Mom, I am not selfish.
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[01 May 2005|07:16pm] |
Among my toppest of the top favorite movies (in no particular order):
1) Biodome
2) Wayne's World
3) Wayne's World 2
4) Slackers
4) Romeo and Juliet
5) The Big Labowsky
Shwing.
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[12 Apr 2005|09:06pm] |
Aerosmith- by Slash
"My big awakening happened when i was fourteen. I'd been trying to get into this older girls pants for a while, and she finally let me come over her house. We hung out, smoked some pot and listened to Aerosmith's Rocks. It hit me like a fucking ton of bricks. I sat there listening to it over and over, and totally blew off the girl...My first Aerosmith concert was in 1978. They were playing at a festival with Van Halen- they were incredibly loud and i barely recognized a note, but it was still the most bitchin' thing id ever seen...Guns n' Roses were asked to open up for Aerosmithon their Permanent Vacation tour. We went to their manager's hotel room, and while he was in the bathroom we ordered $1500 worth of room service and trashed the place. Buit they must have liked us a lot cause they put us on the bill anyways..."
Radiohead- by Dave Matthews
"Every time i buy a radiohead album I have a moment where i say to myself, 'Maybe this is the one that will suck.' But it never does...My reaction to Radiohead isn't as simple as jealousy. Jealousy just burns; Radiohead infuriates me. But if it were only that, I wouldn't go back and listen to those records again and again. Listening to Radiohead makes me feel like I'm a Saleieri to their Mozart. Yorke's lyrics make me want to give up."
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[10 Apr 2005|09:57pm] |
4/05
1. I hate that my mom is too practical
2. I hate that she is always yelling at me, or repeating herself over and over about bullshit that I could care less about and she knows it
3. I hate wanting to leave the house and having no where to go
4. I hate thinking too much
5. I hate wanting a bf or someone there for me when there is no one
6. I want someone to cuddle with.
7. I hate school. I wish it was over.
8. I hate that my mom thinks school is so important now when it’s a bunch of wasted time.
9. I hate that im not skinny. That im not one of those people who can eat anything they desire and still have a fast enough metabolism to not gain weight.
10. I hate that im spoiled but my friends are so much more spoiled
11. I hate that I settled for UF and that I already have a bad attitude about going there because it may taint the experience that I could have.
12. I hate when my mom basically says “I told you so” in some form or another which is more always then never
13. I hate that my guy friends are so banal. Those guys that are just there and think they are cool but have nothing special to them. They aren’t fun or spontaneous or real. They aren’t genuine.
14. I hate longing. But not really being sure of what im longing for.
15. I wish I could write. I wish I had artistic abilities. I wish I could sing. I wish I could play the guitar.
16. I hate wishing that I could do something but not wanting to work for that something.
17. I hate those nights that you need to talk to someone but they are busy or sleeping or distant
18. I hate when people don’t reciprocate your same feelings
19. I hate being disappointed
20. I hate being so nice and so understanding and accepting when the person doesn’t deserve it.
21. I hate missing the past and being scared for the future
22. I hate that im leaving my best girlfriends. That this is it. That we’ll all make new friends and that there is a chance that we won’t stay in touch.
23. I hate thinking about where im going to be. How much money I’m going to make. What my job will be. Will I make something of myself?
24. I hate being scared of finally being on my own. Having to support myself. Do things for myself. Find out things for myself. No aid.
25. Mostly, I hate hating. I wish there wasn’t anything to hate.
26. I hate commitments that I wish I never made
27. I hate lying and having to make up excuses. Im bad at it. Its just not for me.
28. I hate being bored and watching lovey dovey movies that make you depressed and emotional.
29. I hate being in search of something that isn’t there for me to find.
I feel a lot better.
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My lover is a clock.
UF class of 2009
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